I have this void within me.. which i am not sure when will it be bridged..
for miles i walk in the journey of life.. and yet some long lost turn of life just seems to be coming back to me.. some places, people and moments are so comfortable in life.. that you just dont want to get away for them.
Time teaches you all .. walks you away from it and then habit teachs you to be as well but I guess the essence of what was so cozy, simple and natural .. if something are just easy, tailor made you dont have to pretend, its like finding the perfect match to your jigsaw puzzle.. (there are other ways to it but its never the way the perfect match is) then it just seems soo good to be true.
I dont know when will this quest finish or may be its just that life will keep engulfing me more and more into it that i may never get a moment to pause and reflect back, the turn may fade away and get blur and blur as i keep walking away from it .....those people, places and moments will get deep buried in the heep of new events in life .. with a tag of moving on ..
What comes to you instilled as future is definately good, the fact that it happened to you means that it was meant to be .. . but does this mean that what was our past can never be the comfort spot atleast in memories. Life was beautiful at some point in time and that part of it cant be replaced by anything else .. its like winning an oscar. then you keep making newer movies winning more oscars but then that oscar has its own place in your heart .. some things, some places and some people always have a special place and impact on your life.. its like they have scarred you for good.. some scars never go... they heal but they leave a beautiful memory in life .. " I happened to you "
We will go on ,, walk our walks in life.. met new people find new challenges and we all will strive to make it to the top as much as we can, giving our best shots on all fronts.. home, work, life in general ...but somethings never go..
they stay on and I guess you can derive so much of strength from it all, that it may amaze you ,,,, it amazes me as well... what you had can leave such a beautiful impact on your future and make it a wonderful ride as long as you know how to bridge that void......
the bridge is within you to create, the magic of the past can be the magic forever as long as you know how to direct that power of love, bliss, comfort .. walk in a desert but keep thinking of the rainbow down the green valley and then the desert seems like a beautiful green mountain range .. .. Derive... Dream.. Dont let it go all .. keep a part of your best past within you .. and it will come back to you 4 folds with more magical rides that ever ....
This is the bridge.. to be found.. hard but then... who said it was easy to live ! :-)
Monday, June 25, 2007
Thursday, May 3, 2007
Back to where it all began
Folks life brings you back a full circle no matter how and when ..but thats for sure..
after almost 1.5 yrs i am back to Canada ( this time thr work :) ), a place from where a new me, a new dimension all began to my life..ya i guess staying away from home and family for a good 3 years ( to get my masters degree) teaches you a lot in life..
I mean seriously thats the first time in life you know what you can .. its like taking a 400 level know yourself class ..you end up finding your own ways of doing things ( not necesarily the best one s but anyways you have to get thr remember ;) ) fight your own battles and make sure you walk out as a winner as there are very few chances to loss.. manage your finances and treat yourself once in a while ..just as a pat letting you know that you werent all that bad :)
Ya those were some years.. but i love every bit of them coz i guess i wont have been what i am today had those 3 yrs not happened in my life.. i have gone thr the worst ( it seems like worst now.. it seemed hell then ;) but i know i could live thr that as well, gracefully and i guess thats what matters at the end .... those 3 yrs have given me a bagful of lessons, courage, confidence, good friends and I guess toughened me up for the next patch of life.. ( so to say ,, i know I am sounding old.. as if I lived 80 yrs ..so i guess i should stop this get back to the pt )
( reality check ,, atmost needed for an imaginative, in my own world kind of a person .did you notice i just slipped yet again... :) ) So i am back in toronto through work this time and that is making a few things preety easy .. i know the place, i am not on too tight on budgets and somehow coming here after 1.5 yrs makes me feel like come home.. i know thats so strange but it does..
I have a mixed bag .. i feel good and bad both ... i feel good to come back to my life almost very similar to student life.. i am living with 2 of my work collegues and its fun just like masters days.. and the freedom and independence feels beautiful..
its like i can do so much all of sudden again . and yes the perfect summer weather does addd to the glory of feeling free as a bird...
I guess I was just too tided up with my life in India ( home work traffic family functions hectic schedules) and just when i needed i got this chance of getting away for a while.. i am almost treating it like an extended vacation. now a 600 level know yourself class :) hhahha ( you have to act mature even if you arent .. it works ;) ) and it has given me some time to pause and know what i am doing with life.. where do i want it to do .. catch up on my reading which was left light years away ( just to prove that , i have finished the da vinci code... after good 7-8 months of which for the first 4-5 months it was just sitting in my bedroom with the hope that some day i dare do the justice to that magnificent piece of mystery ..and i use to almost feel guilty when friends use to let me know that they finished the book in like days.. thankgod my score is atleast in months .. come on, i could have done worst right .. like never ever read it ;) thats being optimistic .....
life is unfair .. you dont get to do all that you love to do all the time, the sooner you accept it the happier you are ;) but thst doesnt stop you from craving what you would really really want to do
i do miss home and family back there.. but somehow as i know i am going to be back in like just 2-3 months doesnt make me feel so low emotionally. I miss India.. the essess of it . i mean .. the chaat, colors, people, warmth of family and home.. but i have been in north america for 3 long yrs alone so i have found a connection with this place as well.. I have had a few really great friends like family now.. and I had a home here :) it was home for those 3 yrs
I guess I dont know if its fair to say I have a special place for both the countries in my heart ,, one place where i have spent my entire childhood and growing up yrs which continues to be my home till date... and another place which has helped me BE and formed so many aspects of me, it has given me so much in so many senses that I could never forget where it all began .. a place called Canada ......
after almost 1.5 yrs i am back to Canada ( this time thr work :) ), a place from where a new me, a new dimension all began to my life..ya i guess staying away from home and family for a good 3 years ( to get my masters degree) teaches you a lot in life..
I mean seriously thats the first time in life you know what you can .. its like taking a 400 level know yourself class ..you end up finding your own ways of doing things ( not necesarily the best one s but anyways you have to get thr remember ;) ) fight your own battles and make sure you walk out as a winner as there are very few chances to loss.. manage your finances and treat yourself once in a while ..just as a pat letting you know that you werent all that bad :)
Ya those were some years.. but i love every bit of them coz i guess i wont have been what i am today had those 3 yrs not happened in my life.. i have gone thr the worst ( it seems like worst now.. it seemed hell then ;) but i know i could live thr that as well, gracefully and i guess thats what matters at the end .... those 3 yrs have given me a bagful of lessons, courage, confidence, good friends and I guess toughened me up for the next patch of life.. ( so to say ,, i know I am sounding old.. as if I lived 80 yrs ..so i guess i should stop this get back to the pt )
( reality check ,, atmost needed for an imaginative, in my own world kind of a person .did you notice i just slipped yet again... :) ) So i am back in toronto through work this time and that is making a few things preety easy .. i know the place, i am not on too tight on budgets and somehow coming here after 1.5 yrs makes me feel like come home.. i know thats so strange but it does..
I have a mixed bag .. i feel good and bad both ... i feel good to come back to my life almost very similar to student life.. i am living with 2 of my work collegues and its fun just like masters days.. and the freedom and independence feels beautiful..
its like i can do so much all of sudden again . and yes the perfect summer weather does addd to the glory of feeling free as a bird...
I guess I was just too tided up with my life in India ( home work traffic family functions hectic schedules) and just when i needed i got this chance of getting away for a while.. i am almost treating it like an extended vacation. now a 600 level know yourself class :) hhahha ( you have to act mature even if you arent .. it works ;) ) and it has given me some time to pause and know what i am doing with life.. where do i want it to do .. catch up on my reading which was left light years away ( just to prove that , i have finished the da vinci code... after good 7-8 months of which for the first 4-5 months it was just sitting in my bedroom with the hope that some day i dare do the justice to that magnificent piece of mystery ..and i use to almost feel guilty when friends use to let me know that they finished the book in like days.. thankgod my score is atleast in months .. come on, i could have done worst right .. like never ever read it ;) thats being optimistic .....
life is unfair .. you dont get to do all that you love to do all the time, the sooner you accept it the happier you are ;) but thst doesnt stop you from craving what you would really really want to do
i do miss home and family back there.. but somehow as i know i am going to be back in like just 2-3 months doesnt make me feel so low emotionally. I miss India.. the essess of it . i mean .. the chaat, colors, people, warmth of family and home.. but i have been in north america for 3 long yrs alone so i have found a connection with this place as well.. I have had a few really great friends like family now.. and I had a home here :) it was home for those 3 yrs
I guess I dont know if its fair to say I have a special place for both the countries in my heart ,, one place where i have spent my entire childhood and growing up yrs which continues to be my home till date... and another place which has helped me BE and formed so many aspects of me, it has given me so much in so many senses that I could never forget where it all began .. a place called Canada ......
Friday, March 30, 2007
Bday update :)
Hi all..
Heres my bday update.. well i am late but not too late technically as i post it. .I am still in MARCH :)
So here it is right from the source.. Day started with phone calls from family.. mama, mami , cousins and friends.. and then AAI called :) making it just a perfect beginning...
It was a friday so had to go to work .. at work all my friends at work had decorated my desk with flowers chocolates and a dear friend even had a lovely gift for me.. which is currently occupying my office desk and add a bit of color and life to the brown cream cubicle of mine ;) Thanks dear ...
Then all the other friends wished me greeted me.. I got one more gift from other friends just making the day better and special.. ( in the mean while i guess my phone never stopped ringing. .and infact the wishes rolled over to the next day as some friends and fly couldnt get the free at all.. )
Towards the evening V had all my cousins come over home.. and he took all of us out for dinner :) a wonderful surprise absolutely loved it :) Thanks V ... ;)
I guess I am glad that God made Birthdays.. the best part it on that day you get to know that there are so many people in this world who care , who love and really want to make you feel special and let you know it :)
This one is for all of them who are a part of my life and contributing in making it a great one.. I love you all just as much and each one of you is dear to me.. and have a shade of yours in me due to your friendship, love , fun , jokes, sad days comfort, just listening to everything when things go wrong and all you want is to be hear.. Love you all.. LIFE ROCKS THANKS TO FRIENDS AND FAMILY ............... :)
Heres my bday update.. well i am late but not too late technically as i post it. .I am still in MARCH :)
So here it is right from the source.. Day started with phone calls from family.. mama, mami , cousins and friends.. and then AAI called :) making it just a perfect beginning...
It was a friday so had to go to work .. at work all my friends at work had decorated my desk with flowers chocolates and a dear friend even had a lovely gift for me.. which is currently occupying my office desk and add a bit of color and life to the brown cream cubicle of mine ;) Thanks dear ...
Then all the other friends wished me greeted me.. I got one more gift from other friends just making the day better and special.. ( in the mean while i guess my phone never stopped ringing. .and infact the wishes rolled over to the next day as some friends and fly couldnt get the free at all.. )
Towards the evening V had all my cousins come over home.. and he took all of us out for dinner :) a wonderful surprise absolutely loved it :) Thanks V ... ;)
I guess I am glad that God made Birthdays.. the best part it on that day you get to know that there are so many people in this world who care , who love and really want to make you feel special and let you know it :)
This one is for all of them who are a part of my life and contributing in making it a great one.. I love you all just as much and each one of you is dear to me.. and have a shade of yours in me due to your friendship, love , fun , jokes, sad days comfort, just listening to everything when things go wrong and all you want is to be hear.. Love you all.. LIFE ROCKS THANKS TO FRIENDS AND FAMILY ............... :)
Monday, March 5, 2007
The weekend story continues...
As promised here's the update on the weekend..
I had on mind something arty to do but I almost did something artistic in nature.. start sunday morning I got my room cleaned, washed .. ( i mean physically wash :) ) all the curtains from my room and another bedroom ..
cleaned the kitchen .. and then actually rearranged how our living room looked like.. :) so it was sure something arty but not actually how it was planned to be .. but never the less I feel good that i actually did something different and nice :) Now the living room nice .. ( variety is the spice of life ;) i changed my rooms curtains .. so its nice to walk into the room with a change .. and I feel good after a lot of hard work and entire family working towards making it a better place ;) rather beautiful place...
Towards the evening I went out, gave a dress material for stitching :) ( bdays around.. i am looking fwd to the dress :-) )
Thats all. for now.. this was for who read the last blog and for the promise i made of updating about my arty weekend.
P.S Painting is still on mind :) some day for sure... and I will definately upload the picture of it once its done ..
I had on mind something arty to do but I almost did something artistic in nature.. start sunday morning I got my room cleaned, washed .. ( i mean physically wash :) ) all the curtains from my room and another bedroom ..
cleaned the kitchen .. and then actually rearranged how our living room looked like.. :) so it was sure something arty but not actually how it was planned to be .. but never the less I feel good that i actually did something different and nice :) Now the living room nice .. ( variety is the spice of life ;) i changed my rooms curtains .. so its nice to walk into the room with a change .. and I feel good after a lot of hard work and entire family working towards making it a better place ;) rather beautiful place...
Towards the evening I went out, gave a dress material for stitching :) ( bdays around.. i am looking fwd to the dress :-) )
Thats all. for now.. this was for who read the last blog and for the promise i made of updating about my arty weekend.
P.S Painting is still on mind :) some day for sure... and I will definately upload the picture of it once its done ..
Thursday, March 1, 2007
my wish of being everywhere :-)
I get up in the morning and with my hot cup of tea, my daily TOI just got me sad..
I happened to MISS a wonderful exhibition on plants flowers and interior held in sambhaji park from 15th till 17th .. I just hated life.. thought that mom and dad should have been in town they would have surely told me about it.. and even managed to take me along with them.. else the next day i could imagine mom calling me.. telling me all about it.. upto such an extent that i already start feeling that i missed something great and i manage to be there.. the very evening.. ( i still havent mentioned the flowers & the plants she would have bought :) and let me tell you TOI has such nice pictures of it in the supplement part does make you feel bad...)
Yes, by now, you know it.. that I am a total fan of flowers plants.. interiors and all stuff that makes a place feel beautiful...
so then i keep wondering what the hell was I doing then.. and here are the details..
15 feb 07 : Mom Dad wedding aniv.. and my neice nikhitas bday (thats my bro;s kiddo) but everyone is in sydney currently enjoying some great showers.. yes the world is different out there in terms of weather ..can you imagine they are almost close to freezing temp when we are baking in hot ovens.. and trying all possible ways in the world to stay COOL ..anyways back to the point.. so morning started with calls to sydney.. then rushing to work .. a few meetings and then normal day .. and then the evening visited hospital.. my bro's MIL not well..
16th just passed by me doing almost nothing significant in terms of work and my life as well. thinking of which I hate life.. I could have seeen the EXHIBITION ..ehhhhhhh
17th was packed already in the weekend mood ... lets start with the evening (as i am working on 1st adn 3rd sats :( ) for a change hubby comes home in time and I am late from work .. but yet me manage to go some place . Yes weekend begins..
18th Feb i managed to shop 2 formal shirts and 2 Tees.. sunday evening pryamids .. well they are my bday gifts.. which is for a change shopped in well advance :) i am excited already...
In between from 19th till 23rd nothing great happened .. work home work .. and then comes the weekend..yes some how life does seen beautiful towards sats :) hahhaa
this sat being off.. i and hubby went for a few "to do" things in the morning.. evening I shopped 2 pairs of metro shoes.. haha yes there was SALE.. and i got them so cheap that i cant stop flaunting them.. and then the price.. haha
then sat night was coffee out.. me V and one of my bro in law.. it was wonderful coffeee.. talks good music.. we hanged around till 12 in the night finally heading back home.. but i guess i had too much of coffee I lost my sleep :( and was awake reading anything that comes my way with the hope that i shall doze off soon .. were as V was sleeping like a baby ..in the morning he had no clue that i was wide awake reading .. which means the light did go ON ;)
anyways sunday morning started as early as 7 :) got ready to attend a wedding.,. wore a sari from my wedding which I had never wore after the day :) so after almost 1.4 yr.. i managed to fit in the blouse which is a pat to myself..
A dear friend from my colony was getting married and we happened to be in the same school same class.. so met so many old friends.. V, i am sure got bored but i am glad he didnt complain.. met everyones family .. we all got nostalgic.. it was wonderful..
then .. visited one of V's aunt .. :) ( balancing act ) and then headed straight to watch honeymon travels ..it was a good one.. we could laugh for most of the parts of the movie..
then headed to shoppers stop ..it was family shopping day :) but i was nice to our pocket and got nothing :) were as V equalled it for me.. by buying almost half of the shop in the name of i dont have new clothes, they are on SALE !!! ...I am bore with what i wear .. hahha and so on .. not that i was complaining .I guess guilt gives ways to such explanations but that was cool ..
then heading to a resturant..( as I was left with no energy to cook after such a hectic day .. and talking does tire you, beleive me ) the HAPPENING 2 DAY LONG WEEKEND WAS OVER .alas..
week begins.. work home work.. but i am looking fwd to the weekend.. i want to do something arty this weekend.. either paint or sketch or stitch :) I am all set for it ....
Will update you guys how my art work idea actually came into reality ...
I happened to MISS a wonderful exhibition on plants flowers and interior held in sambhaji park from 15th till 17th .. I just hated life.. thought that mom and dad should have been in town they would have surely told me about it.. and even managed to take me along with them.. else the next day i could imagine mom calling me.. telling me all about it.. upto such an extent that i already start feeling that i missed something great and i manage to be there.. the very evening.. ( i still havent mentioned the flowers & the plants she would have bought :) and let me tell you TOI has such nice pictures of it in the supplement part does make you feel bad...)
Yes, by now, you know it.. that I am a total fan of flowers plants.. interiors and all stuff that makes a place feel beautiful...
so then i keep wondering what the hell was I doing then.. and here are the details..
15 feb 07 : Mom Dad wedding aniv.. and my neice nikhitas bday (thats my bro;s kiddo) but everyone is in sydney currently enjoying some great showers.. yes the world is different out there in terms of weather ..can you imagine they are almost close to freezing temp when we are baking in hot ovens.. and trying all possible ways in the world to stay COOL ..anyways back to the point.. so morning started with calls to sydney.. then rushing to work .. a few meetings and then normal day .. and then the evening visited hospital.. my bro's MIL not well..
16th just passed by me doing almost nothing significant in terms of work and my life as well. thinking of which I hate life.. I could have seeen the EXHIBITION ..ehhhhhhh
17th was packed already in the weekend mood ... lets start with the evening (as i am working on 1st adn 3rd sats :( ) for a change hubby comes home in time and I am late from work .. but yet me manage to go some place . Yes weekend begins..
18th Feb i managed to shop 2 formal shirts and 2 Tees.. sunday evening pryamids .. well they are my bday gifts.. which is for a change shopped in well advance :) i am excited already...
In between from 19th till 23rd nothing great happened .. work home work .. and then comes the weekend..yes some how life does seen beautiful towards sats :) hahhaa
this sat being off.. i and hubby went for a few "to do" things in the morning.. evening I shopped 2 pairs of metro shoes.. haha yes there was SALE.. and i got them so cheap that i cant stop flaunting them.. and then the price.. haha
then sat night was coffee out.. me V and one of my bro in law.. it was wonderful coffeee.. talks good music.. we hanged around till 12 in the night finally heading back home.. but i guess i had too much of coffee I lost my sleep :( and was awake reading anything that comes my way with the hope that i shall doze off soon .. were as V was sleeping like a baby ..in the morning he had no clue that i was wide awake reading .. which means the light did go ON ;)
anyways sunday morning started as early as 7 :) got ready to attend a wedding.,. wore a sari from my wedding which I had never wore after the day :) so after almost 1.4 yr.. i managed to fit in the blouse which is a pat to myself..
A dear friend from my colony was getting married and we happened to be in the same school same class.. so met so many old friends.. V, i am sure got bored but i am glad he didnt complain.. met everyones family .. we all got nostalgic.. it was wonderful..
then .. visited one of V's aunt .. :) ( balancing act ) and then headed straight to watch honeymon travels ..it was a good one.. we could laugh for most of the parts of the movie..
then headed to shoppers stop ..it was family shopping day :) but i was nice to our pocket and got nothing :) were as V equalled it for me.. by buying almost half of the shop in the name of i dont have new clothes, they are on SALE !!! ...I am bore with what i wear .. hahha and so on .. not that i was complaining .I guess guilt gives ways to such explanations but that was cool ..
then heading to a resturant..( as I was left with no energy to cook after such a hectic day .. and talking does tire you, beleive me ) the HAPPENING 2 DAY LONG WEEKEND WAS OVER .alas..
week begins.. work home work.. but i am looking fwd to the weekend.. i want to do something arty this weekend.. either paint or sketch or stitch :) I am all set for it ....
Will update you guys how my art work idea actually came into reality ...
Monday, February 12, 2007
Love is in the air ......:)
Well the 14th FEB being just round the corner, truely an illusion of love being in the air, is just about every place you visit...may it be shops or resturants or general hoardings around..
every place you look around Valentines day is THE EVENT.
I know that for a few people this idea is fundamentally wrong as they think, why a day to express your love as it is a continuous process.. a flowing brook which has its own course and the journey itself is the purpose ..so this day means nothing to them...
For some this day has a special meaning as it helps them express what they feel on a much grand scale, let their loved one feel special..
May be in the old days when life was not a race but a journey .. this day was not really needed. I still remember how my grand parents use to share so much of their time together, reading together, going for walkings in the evening, walking on star studded nights, no great holiday packages, no costly diamonds just sheer being together and living the moment was the beauty of their relationship and yes for them 14 feb would have been just a day as any other one as they had a lot of time to for their togetherness.
For me, I think this in todays fast world, when everyone is on a go.. there is no time to pause and smell the roses on the way, watch the rain, see the kids smile and enjoy everything thats normal and yet beautiful ..this day, if is a reason for someone to pause and just share an evening with their dear ones.. and let them know that they are special ..its worth it.
You dont need a day to let your dear ones know that they are so precious, but yet if life is like a fast pace race where you got to be moving all the while, if days like these make you pause I guess its apt.. as the purpose is served and, well, we being humans with love and emotions is proved yet again and the happiness we get seeing our loved one happy ..I guess no dollars can buy that for us ;) right ????
every place you look around Valentines day is THE EVENT.
I know that for a few people this idea is fundamentally wrong as they think, why a day to express your love as it is a continuous process.. a flowing brook which has its own course and the journey itself is the purpose ..so this day means nothing to them...
For some this day has a special meaning as it helps them express what they feel on a much grand scale, let their loved one feel special..
May be in the old days when life was not a race but a journey .. this day was not really needed. I still remember how my grand parents use to share so much of their time together, reading together, going for walkings in the evening, walking on star studded nights, no great holiday packages, no costly diamonds just sheer being together and living the moment was the beauty of their relationship and yes for them 14 feb would have been just a day as any other one as they had a lot of time to for their togetherness.
For me, I think this in todays fast world, when everyone is on a go.. there is no time to pause and smell the roses on the way, watch the rain, see the kids smile and enjoy everything thats normal and yet beautiful ..this day, if is a reason for someone to pause and just share an evening with their dear ones.. and let them know that they are special ..its worth it.
You dont need a day to let your dear ones know that they are so precious, but yet if life is like a fast pace race where you got to be moving all the while, if days like these make you pause I guess its apt.. as the purpose is served and, well, we being humans with love and emotions is proved yet again and the happiness we get seeing our loved one happy ..I guess no dollars can buy that for us ;) right ????
Saturday, February 3, 2007
What are best friends all about
Just a few days back, I have a good conversation with a few friends at work, over a cup of tea, in the much needed afternoon tea break .. we were all of a sudden talking about the comfort of a friend in ones life.. and then jumping to what a best friend is..
For some there was no one like a best friend, as it was difficult for someone to pass the test of the level of expectations set.. for some it was someone they shared a long patch of life..
it was wonderful to even know that their were so many shades to this relationships.. there was possessiveness.. trust..belief..love.. time spent.. being there when needed the most.. lot of opinions from all the different experiences people had in life :)
I guess for me my bestfriend.. is someone with whom I can start a conversation after many years with the same zeal of interest and love from where life had parted our ways and yet as we start talkng the yrs seem to disappear.. the person has grown but the essence is not lost.. just to know that we will always have a special place in our hearts for each other.. and many new friends will come and add to the friendship list and yet I persist .. for all the yrs gone by I continue to be on the list ... thats the beauty of a best friend..
some one you can just call up in the middle of the night and share a dream.. share a sorrow ..share an achievement..or a sheer nothing feel like talking to you element .. and u know you are sharing it with the right person.. as its always taken in the right spirit...
I guess for those who havent yet found there special friend.. i am sure theres some one like that waiting for you at some corner of your life.. its never too late to find the bestest friend life can offer.. and who knows may be you already have them .. its just that its never really discovered
to my best friend.. you will always be special to me ..thanks for coming in my life and making it such a wonderful and easy ride...
P.S ... i promise to be more regular ...somehow things had got a bit busy around work and home :)
For some there was no one like a best friend, as it was difficult for someone to pass the test of the level of expectations set.. for some it was someone they shared a long patch of life..
it was wonderful to even know that their were so many shades to this relationships.. there was possessiveness.. trust..belief..love.. time spent.. being there when needed the most.. lot of opinions from all the different experiences people had in life :)
I guess for me my bestfriend.. is someone with whom I can start a conversation after many years with the same zeal of interest and love from where life had parted our ways and yet as we start talkng the yrs seem to disappear.. the person has grown but the essence is not lost.. just to know that we will always have a special place in our hearts for each other.. and many new friends will come and add to the friendship list and yet I persist .. for all the yrs gone by I continue to be on the list ... thats the beauty of a best friend..
some one you can just call up in the middle of the night and share a dream.. share a sorrow ..share an achievement..or a sheer nothing feel like talking to you element .. and u know you are sharing it with the right person.. as its always taken in the right spirit...
I guess for those who havent yet found there special friend.. i am sure theres some one like that waiting for you at some corner of your life.. its never too late to find the bestest friend life can offer.. and who knows may be you already have them .. its just that its never really discovered
to my best friend.. you will always be special to me ..thanks for coming in my life and making it such a wonderful and easy ride...
P.S ... i promise to be more regular ...somehow things had got a bit busy around work and home :)
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Life as it comes
mom's trip to sydney ..
The past month was a crazy merry go round trip for me.. with the family reunion happening ..
and i got to spend some great time with my bro, sis-in -law and ofcourse our bundle of joy my bro's kid..they were here from like 2 months i never realised, when it was time to bid our good byes and come back to our worlds which were different ..
it seemed like a dream, all the good times spent together.. we enjoyed, watched movies shared jokes.. got nostalgic about the childhood days.. seeing nikhita ( my bros kid) all of a sudden hit me that our next generation is here. we had to give as much as love ..care guidance as we can..
but i fear .. ( just being pessimistical at times) will our kids gel as much as we both did as kids..
and all the fun and cool times we had, living in seperate worlds ..i hope the bond grows stronger with the coming generation...
i know i am sounding old.. but some how seeing your immediate generation grow kind of hits you.. tells u that you aint a kid anymore..( as much as we all willbe at hearts ;) )
anyways i am glad we met after long 4 yrs.. and there will be more such wonderful reunions..
mom and dad have joined them in aus .. and i feel alone all of a sudden.. ya i know i am married and i have vineet and things like that and yet its lonely .. at times you just need YOUR family .. (haha i know how i am sounding ) but then .. its hard. .and will take sometime to sink in. to go to an empty house which was just the centre of joy and love for me
Time is the best teacher it heals the worst of pains ........... this shall also pass and we will meet again..
The past month was a crazy merry go round trip for me.. with the family reunion happening ..
and i got to spend some great time with my bro, sis-in -law and ofcourse our bundle of joy my bro's kid..they were here from like 2 months i never realised, when it was time to bid our good byes and come back to our worlds which were different ..
it seemed like a dream, all the good times spent together.. we enjoyed, watched movies shared jokes.. got nostalgic about the childhood days.. seeing nikhita ( my bros kid) all of a sudden hit me that our next generation is here. we had to give as much as love ..care guidance as we can..
but i fear .. ( just being pessimistical at times) will our kids gel as much as we both did as kids..
and all the fun and cool times we had, living in seperate worlds ..i hope the bond grows stronger with the coming generation...
i know i am sounding old.. but some how seeing your immediate generation grow kind of hits you.. tells u that you aint a kid anymore..( as much as we all willbe at hearts ;) )
anyways i am glad we met after long 4 yrs.. and there will be more such wonderful reunions..
mom and dad have joined them in aus .. and i feel alone all of a sudden.. ya i know i am married and i have vineet and things like that and yet its lonely .. at times you just need YOUR family .. (haha i know how i am sounding ) but then .. its hard. .and will take sometime to sink in. to go to an empty house which was just the centre of joy and love for me
Time is the best teacher it heals the worst of pains ........... this shall also pass and we will meet again..
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